Dileep Kushwaha

It has been approximately 1 month since I posted something here. Last one month was interesting one. Attended a friend’s marriage in Rajasthan. Spent 10 days eating local food and witnessed their rich culture. It closely resembles that of Uttar-Pradesh. Some traditions are longer some short. The place was surrounded by Aravali Hills by three sides. Big old mountains with low vegetation of herbs, cactus. The soil was missing, the landscape would change in a night by strong winds as the sand moves. I have adjusted to hot weather and it was not a concern. Neem Ka Thana is a relatively new district and i could see new infrastruture being built. The language sounds harsh but people are sweet.

Advait Vedanta studies are going on fine. Added few more books to the library. The night seems the best time to work. the temperature is ranging from 44°C to 48°C. Started running in the morning for an hour. I have put on weight by 10KGs in the month of March. I blame it on tasty food of winters and sitting prolonged hour for the exam.

The PSU has been making noise of more than a year. The fan is supposed to be the issue. I have lost two HDDs due to the vibrations the fan brings in. Puchased a new SSD and setting up the workstation. I’m enjoying the speed 3rd Gen SSDs bring. I think anything more than this will be an overkill. The PSU fan too needs to be fixed, its annoying. The two ping 120 mm fan are rare in the online market. Have found a tiny firm accepting to ship me with a delivery time of a week. I hope this will end the misery.

My last post was 4 months ago. I did miss typing out in between. I was having mixed thoughts about the blogs. One no one reads it and secondly, I was worried that I had opened up my heart informing important things about myself that a stranger should never know. I could be manipulated later. So I preferred to not post anything until I came up with a conclusion. A few points on this:

• Existing SM platforms have outlived their lives, either new platforms should come or the interaction should become platform agnostic.
• I fear that my potential employer might ask me a question about my beliefs, i think it’s good that they are aware of them, it will help them know better while offering me the space is seek which takes time to communicate.
• Played several hours of CS2 and Valhiem, not enjoying playing games alone though.
• Got flu twice in these 4 months, they were terrible episodes, the micro-organisms are affecting the gut too these days.
• Enjoying my reading of Advaita Vedanta.
• It seems I will take the second attempt of my CKA exam in January.

• Completed reading The Fountainhead by Ayn Rand. It has some interesting ideas. How Altruism is bad and selfishness that which doesn’t hurt others is better. The novel is written well. She describes each scene with details such as the environment, clothes and emotions making the reader feel like watching a movie. The plot is built slowly making it a 350+ page novel. The cream however is in 4 pages in which the character Howard Roark gives his speech in his trial.

• Ordered fountain pens and inks. I always enjoyed dribbling pen on paper. Since most of the tasks have turned digital, writing with a pen started feeling difficult. My Hindi handwriting too has turned bad since I have not used it for decades. Now that it is the primary language to communicate with the officials in UP, I better improve it. Not gonna lie, I developed a sense of inferiority for the Hindi language until I recently found that perhaps English is the most inferior one. It has not only fewer root words, but it also draws many words from another language. Subjects such as philosophy and art should be read in non-English. I hope to practice a little every day to build the most important skills humans have developed, reading and writing.

• Will slow down reading more new books, the exam should be taken. The digital notes are being made, once sufficient matter is written, it will be converted into articles.